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2017-06-25 05:36 pm

Sleepy Sundays

I've been pretty low energy all week (lucky me) but at least part of the fatigue I can lay blame to a case of Shingles. Color me surprised when that's what my spotty, itchy, ouchie self came down with. I always thought that was an "over 50" malady, but not so.
I'm on the mend, but still a bit tired. It's hard to tell what of that is just poor sleep (I always sleep poorly before my period), what's a Shingles symptom, and what might be a side effect of the anti-virals I got prescribed. I guess in the end it doesn't matter! Tired is tired.
The meds also give me a bit of the queasy-guts, which is both new and not particularly fun. Only another 2 days on them, though.

Reading news:
I finished "Broken Homes" (4th in the Rivers of London series) and am about 40% of the way through the 5th book, "Foxglove Summer." Still having a lot of fun with this series! So far "Moon Over Soho" is the obvious weak link, and I'm glad the subsequent books have kept my interest. Unfortunately it looks like my library system/Overdrive doesn't have the 6th book on audio. This is deeply sad. :< I really adore the reader.

Cooking news: 
No new experiments, but the remaining jars of my coconut yogurt have been delicious, and I can still make a mean batch of chocolate chip cookies.

Life news:
Put in a few hours of OT today, and a new Thing I'm Doing is trying to be as CHILL AND NOT STRESSED as possible. ;) You may note from the all caps that this isn't super easy right now. I'm in a higher-than-usual baseline anxiety state at the moment, and trying to ease that down. Nothing awful, just... higher baseline. :/
Apparently one of the triggers for Shingles is stress.
Part of it is work, part is probably hormones, part is just my brain.
Things I'm doing-- I downloaded a meditation app and am trying to do at least one tiny little guided meditation per day. I'm also trying to do more yoga.
Things I need to figure out how to do-- not absorb my bosses endlessly escalating stress levels.

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2017-06-18 10:50 am
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 Yesterday I made.... (wait for it...) YOGURT.
Yes indeed, I braved the weird, nebulous world of bacteria, and came out with something delicious. 8D I'm super duper pleased.

My mom has been making coconut yogurt for the last few months, and she has a dedicated yogurt maker she got off the internet. I wanted to try making coconut yogurt pretty badly (it's yummy, doesn't contain dairy, and also did I mention yummy?) but I'm not at the "buy lots of equipment" stage of this curiosity. Luckily the internet told me I could do it without, it would just be fussier.
So I did!
It wasn't that "hard" either, although the fussy part was accurate. It involved: 2 cans of coconut milk, 1/3 c. of corn starch, 4 tablespoons of store-bought coconut yogurt as a culture, a candy thermometer, and 24 hours. 
(I followed this recipe)
I say followed. I ... mostly followed it. Like I said, I used corn starch as a thickener instead of tapioca starch, since corn starch is what I had on hand. Since this was my first batch, I don't know how it differs. I also only ~mostly~ kept it at 100* for about 11 hours instead of the 12-24 recommended. 

24 hours later, I HAVE YOGURT.

I'm... somewhat shocked, and deeply pleased. :D
Imgur is being grumpy so I can't share pics. They'll come later, because I'm deeply pleased with myself. *laughs*

It's boatloads cheaper than buying it from the store. 

Store bought--
24 oz plain coconut yogurt: $6.99

Home-made coconut yogurt--
(2) cans of coconut milk: $4.6
1/3 c. corn starch: $.24
Starter: free from now on, so long as I save some yogurt from the current batch
Yields 48 oz plain homemade coconut yogurt! 
Per oz. the homemade coconut yogurt is $.10 whereas the store bought is $.29

orockthro: John Crichton dancing at a distance. (John Crichton dancing)
2017-06-16 06:38 am

Friday Thoughts

Thoughts, in no particular order:

"Whispers Under Ground" by Ben Aaronovitch
Finished this one (3rd in the Rivers of London series) on Wednesday, and am keenly waiting on the hold list from the library for the audio book of book 4. I enjoyed the plot a lot more than "Moon Over Soho"-- probably because for once it involved magical individuals who didn't exude sex appeal and instead made plates. I feel you, magical individuals. I feel you.
Sadly, though, I appear to have eaten through about half the fic in the fandom. Why so small, fandom! I sort of want to write it, but I have 3 more books and several comics to get through before I'm done with canon!
It's proving to be a very fun ride. :)

Artistic Output
That sounds... clinical, doesn't it. That might be half the problem.
I'm doing a year long art project with a friend, hosted on Patreon, and it's been a lovely, fun time. But it's 10 months in. And I'm tired. The work I've been making has been simple and uninspired, and I'm having a hard time sitting down and 'doing the work.'
It's natural for me to want to rest, and resting is important. But it's also tied up with guilt for all the things I 'should' be doing, almost exclusively this means artistically. I don't feel guilt for not sweeping the kitchen. ;P
But jesting aside, it's something I struggle with, and something I need to find peace with.
I feel guilty that:

  • I'm not working harder on CC:Otherworld's (that year long project) work
  • I'm not spending my other time working on my dreambook project
  • I'm behind on a commission
  • I haven't put any thought into a poetry coloring book I want to do, either solo or with a friend
  • I haven't finished scripting, let alone designing or making, a short fantasy comic
  • I haven't posted a art blog update in over a month
  • My art newsletter has languished

I'm afraid that I'm forgetting how to draw for fun. Everything I do is "projects."

I want to do all these things.
But I also want to lay on the porch floor, lemonade in hand, and let my cat walk over me. I want to play Pokemon guilt free, and sit on the sofa staring at the wall. I want to not worry about wasting my life, or worry that I'll regret not putting more energy into art and writing. I have things I want to MAKE... but I am tired. 
I have a full time job. And friends. And two weddings I'm in this summer, and international travel coming up soon.

But is all this just excuses? Am I living an un-creative life when I could be an Art Jedi?

Welcome to my brain. Here, have a pina colata. You might need it.

Is a wonderful thing. I craved it all winter, and now it's here in copious quantities, and I want to soak it all up. We don't have A/C but we haven't melted yet. It's good.
Our backyard is filled with jungle-like life, sun, and a (newly hung) clothesline. Despite my angst above, I'm very content right now. Deeply.
(Note that my roommate's face isn't naturally a blob. I did that just for you. Well. And our anonymity. ;P)

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2017-06-11 07:55 am


So I still don't know many people here over in dreamwidth land. But I want to. I miss the community aspect of fandom. I miss actually having conversations. 
My problem is that I'm not really *in* a particular fandom at all. It happens, and it's not the first time, but it makes finding community harder. 

Thoughts I've Had This Week:
How interesting it is to watch the 'death' of traditional lesbian culture, and feel like I should be mourning... but not that I am. There are aspects of 'traditional lesbian culture' that I never did and never will fit in with. I'm asexual, so that community was not set up with the narrative that fit with me. And very often those spaces were transphobic in ways I cannot in any way condone. But still, the loss of female-specific spaces (lesbian bars, etc.) is... sad. I hope there's a resurgence. It makes me appreciate WisCon every year so very much.

Books I've Read This Week:
I finished "Moon Over Soho" by Ben Aaronovitch, and am now on the 3rd of the series, "Whispers Under Ground." 
I'm enjoying the world quite a lot, and am feeling fannish flutters (I mayyyy have read a bunch of fic and spoiled myself *coughs*) But the plots are sometimes sorta 'meh.' I'm not really into Peter Grant's male gaze very much, although it at least does feel controlled by authorial intent and not just 'a thing that happens.' And I have to admit that, at least at this point in the series, his interest in Beverly Brook weirds me out. She's mentioned to be a teenager, and while it's clear that means high-age teens (18 or 19 I'd guess) that's still pretty young. :/ The whole 'magical creatures generate a glamour that makes people lust for them' trope is getting old. 
But, that said, I do really enjoy the world, and most of the characters, and Peter's POV is super fun.

Things I've Watched This Week:
My roommate and I watched "A League of Their Own" last night. It was odd. I guess enjoyable? It's about the first women's baseball league in World War II when all the fellas were sent off to war. They wore skirts, and had to be coached by a very drunk (and young!) Tom Hanks. Ostensibly, it's based in reality, and there's an actual documentary about this period in time with the same title. I think I would have rather watched that instead.
It was very 1992. I don't have a lot of opinions, except that sexism in 1992 was clearly not solved yet either.
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2017-06-04 05:38 pm

When you lift off the dust sheets and find.... something....

 I have a DW. I keep forgetting. :) 
This is a quick post to remind myself of the existence of this corner of the internet, and a prompt to myself to figure out how best to use it. 

I've fallen off of Tumblr, and my phone isn't quick enough to handle Twitter. So I'm currently quite bereft. Maybe DW is the thing I've been missing. 

Things I'm doing:
  • Finishing up a 6K ish Man from UNCLE and POB Aubreyad fusion fic that approximately 4 people will ever read. Heh!
  • Making my first sourdough bread loaf after nursing along a starter for two weeks
  • Drinking a beer
  • Smiling at my very cute cat
  • Watching my housemate play videogames.
Things are good and well.

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2014-02-01 09:14 am
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2013 Fic-in-Review Meme

2013 Statistics
Super late, but here's what I did!

Number of fics: 21
Number of doodles/fanart: 6 (for simplicity's sake, 6 is somewhat accurate. 1 of those 6 is a "doodle dump" which actually contains a number of sketches, but we're splitting hairs.)
Collective word count: 97,021 (WAIT WHAT????!!!! HOW. WAIT. WHAT?)
Shortest word count: Physics 101 (380) (for simplicity's sake. There's probably/possibly a shorter one in my drabble dump. This should probably be in there too, but oh well.)
Longest word count: Code Decay (23,086)

(These breakdowns are frustratingly difficult to pin. Some gen fics are queerplatonic-ish, and I don't know how to classify them. Also note that the two drabble compilations (art and fic) have been excluded from this count.)
Gen: 15
Slash: 2
Het: 0 (loooool)
Femslash: 2
Poly/bi/pan/other: 6

By Fandom: *coughs* All Person of Interest. Which I feel is a bit telling. 

Most popular story: Blackout. This kinda surprises me, as it was my first foray into multi-chaptered fic since the not-talked-about-times of FF.net which mostly existed to be burned in hellfire. I thought, as I posted more, it would be overtaken in popularity. 

Best story: Oh god. In the most subjective sense possible I'm going to go with Code Decay, in that I feel I learned the most from it, that I'm proud of it for a number of reasons, and that it crushed my soul the most to write. 

Most fun to write: Field Support was my first foray into femslash proper, and even this is a bit...tame. But Root and Shaw are just a joy to write. I need to write more of them. And more of Zoe, too. The second place for this was A Lede Expose, which I wrote as a response to a tumblr prompt and am still pleased about. 

Hardest to write: Tough question. So many fic were difficult in different ways. Code Decay broke me, a little, and was emotionally rough to write. But hardest to actually make, craft wise, was Awaiting Some Return. That bastard went through a half dozen completely different re-writes. And I do mean completely different. I still have a hair brained idea to do a sequel. 

Easiest to write
: Rattlesnake Breaths. Maybe it was something about writing from the id and writing exactly what I needed at that point in time. 

"Holy crap that's wrong, even for you" : *coughs* Hunger Pains

Biggest disappointment: In some ways, I'm still not happy about Awaiting Some Return. Maybe it was because it lived for so long in my mind and through so many drafts, but I do feel that in my need to birth it, I might have short changed it. I just wanted so much from it. 

Biggest surprise: Kick the Generator, by far. This is when I tasted the possibilities that AUs bring, I think, and when it started going downhill (uphill?) in terms of what I wanted from characters on the page versus on the screen. Ie, Shaw/Grace. That took me from left field, and I'm still happy that it did. It wasn't easy to write, by far, and it was also the first fic where I had a super fab relationship with a beta, and by god, if that didn't help solve so many problems. 

What's next for 2014: I'm going to finish the time travel fic (System Restore) if it kills me. And then I have a few wishy washy plans for more POI fic. But I also have a quickly-growing plan to write an Age of Sail Star Trek: Voyager AU with Tom Paris and Tuvok both being ladies and Seven being a siren. So ... you know. That might happen. But I don't know. I never seem to know. XD That's part of the writing process for me. Throw words in the air and see what lands.


There were more questions in the meme, but I thought this was enough. If anyone wants to know anything, let me know. :)
This was my first and really only year being so crazy in fandom. It's a new feeling, and looking at that word count, an incredibly shocking one. I really had no idea I'd written that much. o_O; At all. Like, I knew I wrote a few things, but wow. Whops? 

Links to all my shiz on AO3 

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2013-11-18 07:02 pm

Words words words

Well Nanowrimo this year has mostly been a flop. I'm happy to plough through words, but this idea is so amorphous still. It's a quieter story than I thought, and those take longer to pin down. 

Conveniently (or not?) I do have another POI fic that's chewing at my brain. It's a time travel fic, and I spent longer trying to unwind canon's idea of continuity than was wise.
There's an error somewhere, not that this is a huge surprise to anyone. XD Either S1's  Machine-vision screen cap that dates Ordos happening in May 2010 got ret-con'd, or Finch sent the laptop with the machine-freeing code (that spurred the mission in the first place) out into the world prior to Nathan's death in September 2010, as he implied in the S2 finale.
I'm going with the latter, which is happily convenient for this fic. ;)

And then there's the Irrelevant Exchange! Which is exciting. :3 I'm glad I signed up - it's always nice to write/draw things for people, and always nice to receive things in return too.

Despite my original stuff falling into a much slower pace than Nano would like, it looks like there will be many words in the next month.  

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2013-10-18 06:08 pm

Fic: Awaiting Some Return

Oh yeah! I finished a thing!

Finally got this fic finished and up. It changed a lot through the writing process, and now… now I’m planning its sequel. Because that’s happening, apparently.
Rating: Teen
Words: 6,600
He stands in her kitchen looking lost. “I’m looking for my uncle Harold. I think you might know him. I think you married him, actually. Is he here?”
(Or, Harold is gone, but the world keeps on turning. Will and Grace struggle to find purpose, and are haunted by an unexpected ghost.)
((Warning: deals with the offscreen death of a character, but in a way that focuses on grief, moving on, and finding purpose.)) 
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2013-10-10 04:34 pm

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 @___@ Blarg. I'm sick. I have no reason to complain: I went over two years without a sniffle. But man. All that did was make me forget how much it sucks.
Just gonna curl up, suck on cough drops, and watch something stupid, and hope it's over with quick. Suggestions?
Also a dude at work was a super creeper today. Ehhhhh. :(
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2013-10-06 07:21 am
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 Arg. I've been feeling so much, like, pseudo A.D.D. on projects lately. Pick a fic to work on, then decide another one is more interesting, then decide a third un-started idea is totally what I should be doing, then migrate back to the first. And then, when I finally get settled in, decide I should be working on original things, or that screw writing, I should be drawing. o_O In the end, nothing gets done.
Basically... I feel scatterbrained and unfocused. And it's not very fun.

It's all on me, I just need to sit down and like, remove distractions, or something
Whine whine whine. XD
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2013-09-28 07:32 am

POI Doodle Dump

Doodles from a number of delicious prompts given over at tumblr. Doing some more today to combat the cloudy-day-blues.

Prompt: Shaw and foooood

Prompt: What happened after the boilermaker

Prompt: Uncle Harold
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2013-09-23 08:02 pm

Reese/Finch/Grace Art

Finished it! It will also be posted with the next installment of Sarcasticsra's fic.
Poly make-outs are the best way to start drawing smut, right? I leapfrogged right over the easy two-people option. lol!
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2013-09-23 06:02 am

Monday Morning Wip

Happy too-early-on-a-god-damned Monday!
Here, have a WIP while I drink my coffee.  Reese/Finch/Grace, all Sarcasticsra's fault....
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2013-09-20 09:19 pm

Grace Hendricks Art

Did up some art of Grace for Sarcasticsra's new fic, With Words Strung Together (which is fabulous go read it!)  

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2013-09-18 09:56 pm

10 in 10!

so.... o___o

Day  7: My big bang fic

Day 8: Burned (PG-13)(Kara Stanton, post Dead Reckoning drabble) 

Day 9: Tracking Devices (Teen)(Finch and Reese exchange tracking devices. Because that's how love works, right?) 

Day 10: Lunchboxes in May (PG)(Grace and Harold and John and Leila, 4 years down the line).
“Kindergarten is only half days, sunshine. You’ll still be eating lunch at home with Grace and Harold,” he said. From on top of his shoulders Leila squirmed. She was growing fast for her age and sprouting like a beanpole, all legs and arms constantly in motion around a little frog belly.

.... I guess I managed to do the 10 in 10 challenge! 
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2013-09-15 01:12 pm

Big Bang Challenge: Code Decay


Code Decay

Summary: Nathan lays back on the bed, Harold’s bed, the bed that possibly started all of this. He’d washed the sheets for him since, but he imagines he can still smell sex. “I always wanted to be a dad, you know.”

A slow page turn and an even slower turn of the head. “You’re getting ahead of yourself. There may not even be a baby. Olivia must be very early in her first trimester, and the level of error is not insignificant in—”

“Harold, just shut up.” Nathan throws a pillow at his head.

(Or, it’s 1983 at MIT and things aren’t simpler at all. Poly Harold/Nathan/Olivia and the years of Will Ingram’s conception, birth, and babyhood.)


Although I got a neat graphic (linked in the AO3) I still went ahead and drew myself an illustration. For reasons.

This fic is one that grew. It became surprisingly important to me. I hope people enjoy it. I'm glad to finally be able to share it.



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2013-09-14 09:20 pm

Carla Elias

Today's 10 in 10 is a doodle for the 200 word gender AU drabble I did the other day... 
Tomorrow's 10 in 10 will be much more impressive (BIG BANG BIG BANG BIG BANG) but today, a doodle.

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2013-09-13 08:30 pm

10 in 10 continues

I'm still rolling out fic for the 10 in 10 challenge! Having to basically tell my internal editor to put up or shut up has been a little strange. But it's good, I think, to a) force out some WIPS and b) force out some drabbles that might not have gotten written otherwise.

Day 4: Like a Ghost in my Mind  (Shaw makes things right. And by right, I mean she breaks Nathan Ingram out of captivity) (Teen) (1,800 words)
"Back before everything fell apart, Cole used to say, “Look, the guy they’ve got down there? That’s not right, Shaw. I don’t think they let him out. Ever,” every time Research adjusted their intel. Because it wasn’t quite as simple as just getting a place, a person, a target, and then sending them in to raze the place. Sometimes Control would run it through their man downstairs, and sometimes the target would change."

Day 5: She Names Him (Kara ficlett! Dude she's a hoot to write.) (PG-13) (200 words)
“Get dressed,” she tells him once she’s come and he’s spent and laying on the dead stranger’s sofa. “We have a flight to catch.”

Nothing like writing some Kara Stanton to make a rough/stressful day/week at work float away.... ;)